Friday, February 10, 2012

An apology to Carter.

I am a member of a large online community and website for parents and parenting called Babycenter.com. On that website, I am a member of a public group called, "March 2011 Birth Club". Every woman from here to Timbuktu that registered on this website with a due date in March was put in this group. In that group, even among the hundreds of active users, there is a "Marchie" that none of us will forget. To hear that name 50 years from now will make me think of him.

He will be a year old next month, just like my baby. He has spent the great majority of his new life battling cancer. Now he has had 50% of a large brain tumor removed. To put more salt on his suffering parents' wounds, they have been informed he has tumors wrapped around his tiny little spine. Just to type the words are heart wrenching..... he will most likely pass away by his first Birthday.

I suppose the right thing for me to do is say that I hope this woman finds the strength to pull through this, and that one day she can move forward and possibly continue with a happy life. I just can't say those things. I am so angry for this woman. There are a lot of unfair things in this world that can be dealt with. Babies fighting for their life, and it ending before their first Birthday is something I  just can't deal with. There is no good reason this should ever happen to anyone.

This story breaks my heart. It also makes me very thankful. I have a very healthy child, and I sleep peacefully every night because of that. I can't even begin to fathom how I would make it through such tragedy. I am sick to my stomach at the thought of it. If this situation were my own, the only thing I would be thankful for is the fact that Kylan was my only child, and I would soon put a bullet in my head after it was over. I simply just couldn't go on.

To all of you reading this, please send your prayers to this baby and his family. 








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